I find myself constantly asking myself, is it my fault? Have I taken my tablets today? I don’t understand these mood swings, nipping at people for the slightest things, putting on an act to entertain people, I remember once being told to come to a party because I would keep people laughing ,later I asked myself was I only invited because of my sense of humour and it was a family member who’d asked me to come along, still makes me angry thinking about it, anyway no point in dwelling on that.
You are probably asking where is this rant going? Well the answer is depression. The scourge of people, depression get a bad name because we use the word “mental” as part of it’s description, people are scared of that word ,even I was until I was diagnosed with depression.
I am glad I went to the doctors, fortunate for me I had an understanding doctor, before I go any further I recommend anyone who thinks they are suffering …go now and find out, the longer you wait the worse it becomes, I left it for about 6/7 months before I saw someone.
I should have known there was something wrong..people asking me what’s wrong? Why are you so grumpy? The real victims in this were my family not me, I couldn’t see I was wrong, but the day my wife threw me out the car..I knew I wasn’t right, that’s when I went to see doctor and from thereafter various or medical people, all I hasten to add were great. I still have mood swings but that is to be expected…a tablet doesn’t take depression away it only helps you along.
The purpose of this story is, if you are feeling that something is wrong, go and see a doctor, don’t listen to the “get over it” or “you’ll be fine tomorrow “brigade they don’t know how you really feel.
Even to this day some of my family still don’t understand what depression is..I have tried to explain but it’s hard.
Please I urge you if you feel that something is wrong go and see someone…and that’s not the local barman..I can assure you that doesn’t work, don’t be put off by the expression Mental Health..it’s just a title, if you were feeling unwell you’d go to the doctor, it’s just the same.
If you feel you are suffering from lack of sleep, mood swings these are just a couple of things to look out for..I’ll leave you with the thought of, you’re not only helping yourself but you are helping those around you.
Dermot will shortly be doing a program with Billy No’well on depression.
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